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		<title>My Hacker</title>
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		<pubDate>Tue, 14 Jun 2011 04:39:11 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Nil17</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[<p>Over the weekend I was informed by my sister-in-law that my blog had been hacked. Not the best gtalk message to receive as my pillow was getting fluffed just right on Saturday night. </p> <p>Off I went to my desktop pc and logged into my webhosting site where I contacted the live support person. They [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<!-- Start Shareaholic LikeButtonSetTop Automatic --><!-- End Shareaholic LikeButtonSetTop Automatic --><p>Over the weekend I was informed by my sister-in-law that my blog had been hacked.  Not the best gtalk message to receive as my pillow was getting fluffed just right on Saturday night.  </p>
<p>Off I went to my desktop pc and logged into my webhosting site where I contacted the live support person.  They immediately directed me to submit a help ticket request to the tech support center.</p>
<p>I submitted the help request, changed my password for the blog site and headed back to bed.  Of course my brain was on overload at this point so I was rather wide awake.  I went to check my blog from my phone (from whence I am composing this missive) only to find that it had been hijacked yet again.  By now I was really pissed off.</p>
<p>Abe was awake and we were talking about what a hassle the whole thing was and how silly that I had gotten hacked.  I started to think of all the websites out there on the interwebz my little blog got hacked.  I mentioned how it was nearly worthy of a &#8220;REALLY?!?!?!?&#8221; segment a la Weekend Update.  Abe laughed and told me I had my next blog post&#8230;so without further ado here it is.</p>
<p>The following text was basically what appeared on my blog.  It was white text on a black background &#038; there was a stylized skull and crossbones in the center of the page.</p>
<blockquote><p>{#} Team [redacted Middle Eastern Country] hacker{#}<br />
{#}The [redacted] hack{#}<br />
This What We Do Hacking all The Time<br />
Just open your eyes you fucked <img src='http://nil17.com/wp-includes/images/smilies/icon_razz.gif' alt=':P' class='wp-smiley' /> <br />
Team [redacted Middle Eastern Country] hacker We Never Play<br />
See ya</p></blockquote>

Really? That&#8217;s the scariest language you&#8217;ve got?  I mean really&#8230;you *never* play? That just sounds boring.  And you &#8220;do hacking&#8221; all the time? Really? So you don&#8217;t take time to eat or sleep or go to the bathroom?  I suppose that guarantees you don&#8217;t shower&#8230; And really??  You manage to hack my blog&#8230;my teeny little onlyhasonereader (my cousin&#8230;okay, two readers since my sis-in-law noticed the hack) blog.  Wow, what an accomplishment!  I mean really&#8230;all the other hackers will be so impressed.  You managed to disable what could be the most insignificant site in all the interwebz.  Oh wait, was this your &#8220;jumping in&#8221; to the hacker world?  That would make slightly more sense.  Seriously though I doubt it would give you much street cred&#8230;really, I wish you luck in your quest to be taken seriously in the hacker world.  Really.

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		<title>Politics: A Rant</title>
		<link>http://nil17.com/2011/05/politics-a-rant/</link>
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		<pubDate>Wed, 25 May 2011 16:47:00 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Nil17</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[<p>Today is May 25, 2011&#8230; There are 531 days until the November election in 2012.  I&#8217;m already so sick of hearing about it that I&#8217;m tempted to delete anybody from my online life that talks about it.</p> <p>The Republicans don&#8217;t like anybody from the Democrats. The Democrats detest anyone who is conservative.  Then there is [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<!-- Start Shareaholic LikeButtonSetTop Automatic --><!-- End Shareaholic LikeButtonSetTop Automatic --><p>Today is May 25, 2011&#8230; There are 531 days until the November election in 2012.  I&#8217;m already so sick of hearing about it that I&#8217;m tempted to delete anybody from my online life that talks about it.</p>
<p>The Republicans don&#8217;t like anybody from the Democrats. The Democrats detest anyone who is conservative.  Then there is the in party fighting&#8230;</p>
<p>The candidates barely announce their intention to run before they are cannabalized by their own so-called supporters.  Frankly it sickens me.  I understand the need to be critical of the next leader of our country; whether it be our current president gaining a second term or a new face.  We need the best person for the job.  I think everybody can agree that there&#8217;s a lot wrong in our country and our government as a whole bears the responsibility.</p>
<p>However, I really don&#8217;t think that it is productive to look at a potential candidate and poke fun at how &#8220;exciting&#8221; he may or may not be. (See <a href="http://excitingthingsabouttimpawlenty.com/"> Exciting Things About Tim Pawlenty </a>).</p>
<p>Now I&#8217;m not endorsing Mr. Pawlenty (or anybody else for that matter).  Rather I want the focus to be on what can be done NOW for the many people who have suffered devastating losses due to natural disasters. We have seen cities flattened, counties flooded and people left with nothing.  Meanwhile the main focus on the news seems to be the latest Presidential faux pas in Britain &#038; the retirement of Oprah.</p>
<p>I feel frustrated at the disconnect I see between what happens in our everyday lives while our government is concerned with random shit.  I don&#8217;t care if a candidate is exciting or comes from an exciting state&#8230;I care what practical ideas they have to fix what&#8217;s wrong: high unemployment, higher fuel prices, communities trying to rebuild&#8230;</p>
<p>So excuse me while I skip the crazed early days of 9,000 candidates.  I&#8217;m looking for a little less excitement &#038; a hell of a lot of substance.</p>
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		<title>I&#8217;m a Crazy Hermit</title>
		<link>http://nil17.com/2011/03/im-a-crazy-hermit/</link>
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		<pubDate>Wed, 02 Mar 2011 23:44:26 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Nil17</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[This has been a busy week for me&#8230;I actually left the house twice! The first trip into town was to a gourmet grocery store &#038; I will post on that soon. The other trip was a couple days later for a Target run. Both trips were productive but driving into my yard was a relief. [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<!-- Start Shareaholic LikeButtonSetTop Automatic --><!-- End Shareaholic LikeButtonSetTop Automatic -->This has been a busy week for me&#8230;I actually left the house twice! The first trip into town was to a gourmet grocery store &#038; I will post on that soon. The other trip was a couple days later for a Target run. Both trips were productive but driving into my yard was a relief.
Pulling into the parking space by my front door &#038; turning the key off felt like a weight being lifted from my shoulders. Breathing became easier and deeper-more natural.

For those of you who know me well this all probably sounds like some bizarro world version of me. I assure you it isn&#8217;t. Rather it is me in my more true state. Hidden beneath my &#8220;vivacious&#8221; &#038; &#8220;outgoing&#8221; exterior lies a true introvert. (waits while you all snap your jaws closed) 

But, but, but&#8230;I know what you&#8217;re all thinking&#8230;I talk a lot &#038; laugh &#038; joke&#8230;I always seem to have a comment&#8230;.

All of that is behavior I&#8217;ve learned &#038; cultivated&#8230;it is a mask that allows me to survive in social situations. By being quick with a turn of phrase, a smile, a wink it is very easy to keep people at arm&#8217;s length. No need to look deeper or ask questions&#8230;I must be confident &#038; smart &#038; fun&#8230; (okay writing those three adjectives just caused me to snort - those are the unlikeliest words I&#8217;d ever use to actually describe me).

Perhaps my innate shyness is the root of the reason I never moved to Paris&#8230; (a common assumption my former high school classmates made. I learned this second hand but apparently when I slipped out the side door (figuratively) after graduation &#038; wasn&#8217;t heard from again they all assumed I was living the life of the starving writer in Paris).

Instead after spending 10 years living in the city I moved to the northern woods of Minnesota. I loved it up there&#8230;the isolation of the forests, the expanse of Lake Superior and the ability to feel tiny yet invincible.  Now I live on the prairie &#038; there&#8217;s a sweetness to that existence as well. The great stretches of open land, the unbroken sky littered with clouds. I&#8217;m embracing my hermit side more &#038; more. 

The real me is far more comfortable in my own space than out &#038; about. I don&#8217;t want to get dressed &#038; comb my hair (and be judged) in order to visit with people.  I want to stay in my comfy shirt &#038; sip coffee on my couch. You&#8217;re welcome to visit just don&#8217;t expect me to put on pants.<div class="shr-publisher-1634"></div><!-- Start Shareaholic LikeButtonSetBottom Automatic --><div style="clear: both; min-height: 1px; height: 3px; width: 100%;"></div><div class='shareaholic-like-buttonset' style='float:right;height:60px;'><a class='shareaholic-googleplusone' data-shr_size='tall' data-shr_count='true' data-shr_href='http%3A%2F%2Fnil17.com%2F2011%2F03%2Fim-a-crazy-hermit%2F' data-shr_title='I%27m+a+Crazy+Hermit'></a><a class='shareaholic-fblike' data-shr_layout='box_count' data-shr_showfaces='false' data-shr_href='http%3A%2F%2Fnil17.com%2F2011%2F03%2Fim-a-crazy-hermit%2F' data-shr_title='I%27m+a+Crazy+Hermit'></a><a class='shareaholic-fbsend' data-shr_href='http%3A%2F%2Fnil17.com%2F2011%2F03%2Fim-a-crazy-hermit%2F'></a></div><div style="clear: both; min-height: 1px; height: 3px; width: 100%;"></div><!-- End Shareaholic LikeButtonSetBottom Automatic -->]]></content:encoded>
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		<title>Edu-ma-ka-schun</title>
		<link>http://nil17.com/2011/01/edu-ma-ka-schun/</link>
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		<pubDate>Fri, 28 Jan 2011 03:38:36 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Nil17</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[<p>I&#8217;m going to begin this story the way all classic stories begin&#8230;</p> <p>Once upon a time there was a boy name Joshua.  Joshua was like most kids his age (8)&#8230;he liked video games &#38; movies, running around outside &#38; playing with his cousin JD.  Like all boys he could get into trouble in the most [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p><!-- Start Shareaholic LikeButtonSetTop Automatic --><!-- End Shareaholic LikeButtonSetTop Automatic -->I&#8217;m going to begin this story the way all classic stories begin&#8230;</p>
<p>Once upon a time there was a boy name Joshua.  Joshua was like most kids his age (8)&#8230;he liked video games &amp; movies, running around outside &amp; playing with his cousin JD.  Like all boys he could get into trouble in the most entertaining ways.  He was  inquisitive &amp; imaginative; never short on explanations for his escapades either.  Joshua was a sweet boy when he chose to be&#8230;willing to help his mom &amp; generous with telling her she did a good job.</p>
<p>The biggest (well one of the biggest anyway) challenges with Joshua was getting him to sit still &amp; listen in class.  In order to help him with that, he attended two years of kindergarten.  The extra year helped quite a bit though Joshua is still a little rambunctious at times.  Nothing that would require medication-more just growing up.  Now in first grade, Joshua is working on reading, math &amp; all the good stuff that comes with that.  Before I continue with Joshua&#8217;s school adventures we should explore the school itself.</p>
<p>This is a rural farming area in the Upper Midwest. Picture your stereotypical small town life&#8212;get rid of the hillbillies, hicks &amp; rednecks&#8212;well not get rid of them; just don&#8217;t populate the entire area with them.  Since this area is comprised of many small farming communities the schools have combined districts in order to keep the schools open.  This means that 3-4 schools are combined &amp; bus kids to various schools.  There are usually at least 2 sections to any given grade but never more than 4 sections.  In fact I think 4 might be really pushing it.  With the towns combining districts this means that the normal grade size is between 30-60.  We will work with 50 since that&#8217;s a nice round number.  Fifty kids to a grade would mean 25 kids to a classroom.  A decent size class though not totally unmanageable.  For the most part classes tend to be a tad smaller.</p>
<p>Back to Joshua&#8212;as a first grader he is learning the consequences of acting out more than in kindergarten.  When I say acting out I mean yelling out answers without raising his hand, jumping up to help with passing out papers without permission or being upset that he doesn&#8217;t have a job to do if the teacher passes it to another student.  He is working on it &amp; getting MUCH better.  Joshua&#8217;s eagerness to participate sometimes overwhelms his &#8220;indoor&#8221; voice.  Another thing that Joshua doesn&#8217;t always judge well is when to be silly.  Let&#8217;s face it, the kid is only 8 and he has embraced childhood completely.  This is as it should be&#8230;life gets complicated quickly enough these days.</p>
<p>Joshua has a very quick &amp; odd sense of humor.  This is in no way discouraged by any family  member &amp; that includes aunts, uncles and grandparents.  Joshua&#8217;s grandpa, T loves to joke around, pull pranks &amp; generally laugh.  Grandpa T is good at doing silly voices &amp; had spent a weekend talking to Joshua in a duck voice.  Think Daffy Duck flustered &amp; sputtering.  Joshua loved it &amp; quickly picked up the knack for doing the duck voice himself.  Fastforward to the next week in school.  Mrs 1st Grade, his teacher, asks Joshua to do something in class.  Joshua isn&#8217;t feeling cooperative &amp; says, &#8220;No&#8221;.  The teacher asks a second time &amp; Joshua decides that in order to really make his point he will quack his answer.  Needless to say Joshua got off the bus with a note from the teacher.  After patiently (and with a great deal of exasperation) explaining that quacking was only allowed with Grandpa T, Joshua&#8217;s mom shared the story with the rest of the family.  I mean, while it wasn&#8217;t polite to quack at the teacher, it certainly is worth a hearty chuckle.</p>
<p>Recently though things have taken an odd turn with regard to Joshua&#8217;s actual education.  Being in first grade, Joshua is learning to read&#8230;or so his mom thought.  Lately though Joshua has been coming home with papers that have been graded &amp; a note saying &#8220;This paper was read to Joshua during class&#8221;.  Another note said, &#8220;Due to Joshua&#8217;s slow reading this paper was read to him during class&#8221;.  Joshua&#8217;s mom is troubled by what this means.  After all, learning to read is a fundamental skill; if Joshua isn&#8217;t working on his reading IN school where should he be working on it?</p>
<p>Now I can hear all the people who are going to clamor that the parent(s) need to be involved with Joshua&#8217;s education.  There&#8217;s no argument there &amp; Joshua&#8217;s mom does work with him at home though not always as much as she would like.  Joshua&#8217;s father isn&#8217;t around so he is a non-issue.  The real deal here is that reading is something that MUST be taught in school.  Forget the politically correct stuff&#8212;the &#8220;How to be Green&#8221; and whatever else is taught these days.  First &amp; foremost what needs to be taught are the fundamentals&#8212; reading, writing &amp; arithmetic.</p>
<p>Granted there are 20 some students in the classroom so individual time with each student is harder to manage.  On the other hand there are 2 adults in the room.  The teacher &amp; a certified teacher&#8217;s aide.  When I think back to my own days in elementary school we did a lot of practice on reading.  We even read out loud&#8230;including the slow readers.  I was a quick study with books so I remember wondering why we had to keep reading our primers.  I got sick of &#8220;Dick can run. See Dick run. Run Dick Run.&#8221;   &#8220;Jane sees Dick. Jane sees Dick run.&#8221;   However, we went the pace of the majority of the class.  It was too slow for a couple of us; it may have been too fast for a couple students as well but by the time we moved to second grade everybody had a decent handle on reading.</p>
<p>So what&#8217;s the deal here?  Is Joshua so slow that he needs extra help in school?? Why hasn&#8217;t the teacher discussed this with Joshua&#8217;s mom?  Is Joshua really that slow or is the teacher trying to hurry the students through their assignments &amp; tests?  The big problem as Joshua&#8217;s mom sees it &#8212; she is sending her son to school to learn to read &amp; rather than learning to read the teacher is doing it for Joshua.  No wonder we are doing so poorly on test scores, falling behind other countries in education &amp; are graduating children who are almost completely illiterate.  If we don&#8217;t teach our children to read (and work hard with the ones who need it most) then we are setting them up for failure.  If this is happening in a class of 25 kids or less think what is happening in the giant city schools.  It is to weep.
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		<title>Fashion Week Or You Want Me to Wear What?</title>
		<link>http://nil17.com/2010/09/fashion-week-or-you-want-me-to-wear-what/</link>
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		<pubDate>Thu, 23 Sep 2010 22:11:06 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Nil17</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[The fashion world has been agog at the latest styles/trends for the autumn/winter season. Many of the headlines/tweets I&#8217;ve seen have made much of &#8220;plus-size&#8221; runway fashions. Apparently in Milan there was a kerfuffle over the designer who has opened the last 5 years being left off the official calendar this year. In New York, [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<!-- Start Shareaholic LikeButtonSetTop Automatic --><!-- End Shareaholic LikeButtonSetTop Automatic -->The fashion world has been agog at the latest styles/trends for the autumn/winter season. Many of the headlines/tweets I&#8217;ve seen have made much of &#8220;plus-size&#8221; runway fashions. Apparently in Milan there was a kerfuffle over the designer who has opened the last 5 years being left off the official calendar this year. In New York, the big news was their first ever &#8220;plus-size&#8221; runway.

So why do I (or you) care? Well I should start by saying that I do like seeing more realistic women on the catwalk.  However, I&#8217;m not about to fall for the &#8220;real women are finally being accepted in fashion&#8221; propaganda being fired at me. For one thing none of the models are shorter than 5&#8217;8&#8221; (I&#8217;m guessing but I bet they probably aren&#8217;t even that short).  Another is all these models are what I think of as &#8220;pretty fat&#8221;. These women are gorgeous, there&#8217;s no denying it. I see them &amp; think &#8220;Damn, she&#8217;s looks fine&#8221;. But &#8220;pretty fat&#8221; is the least <em>objectionable </em>to the fashionistas. These gorgeous Amazonian women are plumb &amp; curvy in all the right places. Never an unsightly tummy bulge or that inconvenient under arm wobble.

But back to the issue of why care&#8230;

I don&#8217;t know about you but I&#8217;m not 5&#8217;8&#8221;&#8212; in fact I&#8217;m just 5&#8217;2&#8221; &amp; weigh somewhere between 200-800 lbs. (You didn&#8217;t actually think I&#8217;d post my real weight did you?!?) The fact is that all the clothes that look so fantastic on the catwalk look pretty ridiculous on me. I mean seriously why is it that pants are either too long (average) or just that bit too short (petite) so that I look like I&#8217;m wearing someone else&#8217;s pants? Not to mention that the pants (or jeans, shorts, skirt) may fit in the waist or the hips but never both at once. I just bought new pants a couple weeks ago&#8212;tried them on &amp; they fit really well. In fact I looked in the mirror and wonder of wonders; I didn&#8217;t shudder &amp; close my eyes. I even did a pirouette in the mirror so I could look at them from all angles. The rub here is that while the size I ended up purchasing fits pretty well there is a significant gap at the waist. Now when I wear them I&#8217;m constantly hitching them up just a bit. It is beyond me that we can&#8217;t get some sort of standard for women&#8217;s sizes. While making pants the men&#8217;s are made wouldn&#8217;t necessarily be the answer it would be a damn sight closer &amp; could take some of the dread out of buying jeans.

Another fashion issue that drives me up a wall is the way designers just make skinny clothes bigger.  I get that this sounds like a no-brainer.  The problem is that if you take a shirt designed for a size 2 &amp; just add more fabric you end up with a tent style garment that resembles a shirt. Frankly I&#8217;m tired of wanting clothes that look good on the hanger (not dissimilar to the original model) but are tight in odd places (like under the armpit) but hang or gape too wide at the waist.  Is it so difficult to use a woman of the appropriate size on which to base your patterns? Apparently it is because I&#8217;m appalled at some of the items I see for sale to fat girls (plus-size, BBW, etc. whatever you want to call us).

I won&#8217;t even go into the whole shirt dress craze&#8230;. *rolls eyes*

I have to say this&#8230;it makes me crazy to walk into a store &amp; see <strong><em><span style="text-decoration: underline;">WHITE</span></em></strong> pants in plus sizes. Come on ladies, you know better than to wear those white pants. They barely look decent on a tiny little stick person; you know that they aren&#8217;t the most flattering thing you own. I admit I&#8217;ve tried on white pants only to look in the mirror &amp; shriek in horror. I know I&#8217;m not skinny by any stretch of the imagination but white pants (jeans, skirts, skorts, capris etc) make me look like Moby Dick. Were Melville alive today he&#8217;d die from disbelief that his creature had come to life in a women&#8217;s dressing room. Do yourself &amp; your self-esteem a <span style="text-decoration: underline;"><em><strong>HUGE</strong></em></span> favor; resist the urge to buy or wear them.

Of course no discussion of fashion would be complete without my well-worn rant about bras. There remains a disturbing lack of appropriate bras.  I&#8217;ve ranted about it <a href="http://nil17.com/?p=390">before</a> (<a href="http://nil17.com/?p=401">twice</a>). I can now add in a diatribe against nursing bras. I mean for the love of chocolate&#8212;how is it that when a woman needs extra support the most it is as hard to find as an honest politician. I&#8217;m not kidding when I say the nursing bras I found that fit do not do much besides hold the girls in a general sort of way. Simply walking to the kitchen starts a jiggle that makes jello look sturdy. Forget running up the stairs or walking briskly through Target. How is it that when I want a cute, sexy bra all I can find are bullet-cupped, grandma bras yet when I need a bra like that all I can find are see-through mesh cups? It&#8217;s insane. I dream of the day when I can get an attractive (or even a slutty one if I&#8217;m really feeling daring) bra without having to sell my 1st born on the black market. If there&#8217;s anybody out there looking to make great bras for us ladies who have the need for great looking bras (and matching oh please let there be matching panties) let me know. I will happily be your muse.

All I can say is ladies, you lovely women who look like women &amp; not 13 year old boys, please be conscious of what you wear. Just because the fashion industry has deemed long tunics &amp; &#8220;jeggings&#8221; to be the must-have look this season does NOT mean we should all run out &amp; get them. Rather find that comfortable worn pair of jeans, a comfy second hand sweater &amp; splurge on some great leather boots. After all, YOU are definitely worth it!<div class="shr-publisher-1410"></div><!-- Start Shareaholic LikeButtonSetBottom Automatic --><div style="clear: both; min-height: 1px; height: 3px; width: 100%;"></div><div class='shareaholic-like-buttonset' style='float:right;height:60px;'><a class='shareaholic-googleplusone' data-shr_size='tall' data-shr_count='true' data-shr_href='http%3A%2F%2Fnil17.com%2F2010%2F09%2Ffashion-week-or-you-want-me-to-wear-what%2F' data-shr_title='Fashion+Week+Or+You+Want+Me+to+Wear+What%3F'></a><a class='shareaholic-fblike' data-shr_layout='box_count' data-shr_showfaces='false' data-shr_href='http%3A%2F%2Fnil17.com%2F2010%2F09%2Ffashion-week-or-you-want-me-to-wear-what%2F' data-shr_title='Fashion+Week+Or+You+Want+Me+to+Wear+What%3F'></a><a class='shareaholic-fbsend' data-shr_href='http%3A%2F%2Fnil17.com%2F2010%2F09%2Ffashion-week-or-you-want-me-to-wear-what%2F'></a></div><div style="clear: both; min-height: 1px; height: 3px; width: 100%;"></div><!-- End Shareaholic LikeButtonSetBottom Automatic -->]]></content:encoded>
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		<title>Boobies on Parade</title>
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		<pubDate>Sat, 17 Apr 2010 18:43:48 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Nil17</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[Lying in bed this morning I was chatting with Abe &#38; we were talking about Baby.  Not a big surprise since right now that&#8217;s the biggest thing going on with us.  Baby Fred was busy showing off &#38; making known how strong s/he is. Of course I got to thinking about what it&#8217;ll be like [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<!-- Start Shareaholic LikeButtonSetTop Automatic --><!-- End Shareaholic LikeButtonSetTop Automatic -->Lying in bed this morning I was chatting with Abe &amp; we were talking about Baby.  Not a big surprise since right now that&#8217;s the biggest thing going on with us.  Baby Fred was busy showing off &amp; making known how strong s/he is.

Of course I got to thinking about what it&#8217;ll be like after Baby Fred is born &amp; we go about our lives.  For some reason the idea of going out to eat &amp; needing to nurse popped into my head.  Now I don&#8217;t have a problem with women breastfeeding in public&#8230;I was breastfed as were all my siblings.  I&#8217;ve seen tons of women do it in every type of public space.  It&#8217;s a very natural &amp; ordinary event to me.  Now here comes the but&#8230;.

I think there are women who abuse the idea of breastfeeding.  They whip out the tit &amp; parade it around for the world to see while touting their &#8220;right&#8221; to nurse their child.  Hey you have every right to nurse&#8230;.you do NOT have the right to wave your milk-laden udder in the faces of every person within the line of sight &amp; then complain when a) they stare or b) they ask y0u to cover up a bit.  Seriously if you think popping out a boob in the middle of a restaurant isn&#8217;t going to attract some looks you&#8217;re out of your ever-loving mind.  I&#8217;m not saying you have to slink away into a dark corner &amp; hide under a giant tented blanket.  I do think that a bit of propriety, some semblance of modesty, is in good taste.

Where did all this ranty-ness come from you ask&#8230; well quite simply from this <a href="http://www.upi.com/Odd_News/2010/04/13/Breastfeeding-woman-protests-restaurant/UPI-90081271191564/" target="_blank">news story</a>.  It all started on Easter Sunday when this woman nursed her child in a busy restaurant.  I&#8217;ll let you read the story rather than rehash it here.  Basics are she &amp; her family were asked to leave.  She claims it was because of the breastfeeding&#8230;the restaurant claims it was because her male companion was loud &amp; verbally abusive to employees.

Now I&#8217;ve eaten in the restaurant in question.  In fact I&#8217;ve been there with my sister-in-law Anne, her 2 kids &amp; her husband.  At the time the youngest E was nursing.  He got fussy &amp; needed to be fed before we left.  So Anne (who is far more modest than I) proceeded to breastfeed right there in our booth.  No fanfare, no big production &amp; no controversy.  She simply took care of business &amp; that was that.  In fact we&#8217;ve been in restaurants all over the place where E needed to eat &amp; there was never a problem.  Nobody got offended, pitched a hissy fit or asked us to leave.

Why?  It&#8217;s very simple.  Anne simply didn&#8217;t feel the need to flip her shirt up to her chin, expose her entire breast &amp; create a scene where she drew attention to the moment.  Granted there were people that noticed.  I know that employees of the various establishments saw, in fact many times a waiter/waitress would come by the table to see if we needed more service or to deliver the bill.

Basically I don&#8217;t see a reason why there has to be such a brouhaha about the whole issue.  Women have breasts, women with infants tend to breastfeed.  Get over your feminist inclinations to force everyone to recognize your &#8220;wymynpower&#8221;.  Just take care of your kid, keep yourself modest (I&#8217;m not talking burqas here, but maybe a receiving blanket or a burp cloth) &amp; get on with life.  I can guarantee you there are a damn sight more important things than your boobs that need attention in today&#8217;s society.  If you really need to put your boobies on parade head on down to Mardi Gras.<div class="shr-publisher-1200"></div><!-- Start Shareaholic LikeButtonSetBottom Automatic --><div style="clear: both; min-height: 1px; height: 3px; width: 100%;"></div><div class='shareaholic-like-buttonset' style='float:right;height:60px;'><a class='shareaholic-googleplusone' data-shr_size='tall' data-shr_count='true' data-shr_href='http%3A%2F%2Fnil17.com%2F2010%2F04%2Fboobies-on-parade%2F' data-shr_title='Boobies+on+Parade'></a><a class='shareaholic-fblike' data-shr_layout='box_count' data-shr_showfaces='false' data-shr_href='http%3A%2F%2Fnil17.com%2F2010%2F04%2Fboobies-on-parade%2F' data-shr_title='Boobies+on+Parade'></a><a class='shareaholic-fbsend' data-shr_href='http%3A%2F%2Fnil17.com%2F2010%2F04%2Fboobies-on-parade%2F'></a></div><div style="clear: both; min-height: 1px; height: 3px; width: 100%;"></div><!-- End Shareaholic LikeButtonSetBottom Automatic -->]]></content:encoded>
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		<title>Request Denied x4</title>
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		<pubDate>Sat, 03 Oct 2009 00:19:48 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Nil17</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[I was going to post something I started last night but my day has just hit the wall &#38; is splattered like a gruesome deer vs car accident.  Because I&#8217;m too depressed to even function well today I&#8217;m going to rant about something for a bit &#38; will make it up to all you fine [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<!-- Start Shareaholic LikeButtonSetTop Automatic --><!-- End Shareaholic LikeButtonSetTop Automatic --><span style="color: #7f8cc7;">I was going to post something I started last night but my day has just hit the wall &amp; is splattered like a gruesome deer vs car accident.  Because I&#8217;m too depressed to even function well today I&#8217;m going to rant about something for a bit &amp; will make it up to all you fine readers by posting the other stuff later.  I promise it&#8217;s good &amp; fun.</span>

<span style="color: #7f8cc7;">So after being in the hospital in August I filled out a giant amount of paperwork to try to get approved for MinnesotaCare (the health insurance through the state&#8230;I&#8217;d pay a much smaller premium etc than what I&#8217;d pay if I had insurance through my job) so that my hospital stay would be covered.</span>

<span style="color: #7f8cc7;">Today I got not 1 but 4 rejection letters (total I have received more than 6) saying that I do not qualify to receive help from the program.  I won&#8217;t even go into how horrible I feel getting 4 rejection letters&#8230;.I didn&#8217;t get turned down by that many boys in all of my single life (of course I didn&#8217;t date any boys before my adorable husband but that&#8217;s a different matter).</span>

<span style="color: #7f8cc7;">What pisses me off to no end is that I don&#8217;t meet the income requirements for the program.  I, in fact, make too much money.  That&#8217;s right&#8230;.me, a lowly receptionist who makes $9.50/hour at a 32 hour a week job &amp; the sole breadwinner in the family right now, I make too much money.  After the 401k deductions, the federal taxes, state taxes &amp; social security I take home less than $1200 a month.  Out of that amount I must pay rent, insurance, utilities &amp; food.  If I&#8217;m lucky I can also afford fuel for my Jeep.  I was offered health insurance through my job&#8230;if I took that option by the time my portion of the premium was paid I would take home less than $100/month.  I looked at getting health insurance on my own once upon a time when Abe was employed at a great job&#8230;.I was denied that for reasons I won&#8217;t go into here.</span>

<span style="color: #7f8cc7;">While the whole country is bitching &amp; moaning about everything from Roman Polanski to the Olympics to who knows what else and fighting each other rather than saying, &#8220;We have to do something to fix healthcare so let&#8217;s put aside who&#8217;s right &amp; who&#8217;s left and do the job we were hired to do&#8221;&#8230;.I&#8217;m staring at a pile of medical bills, the upcoming rent &amp; the stack of rejection letters (including Abe&#8217;s job hunt rejections).  Explain to me why a 15 minute consultation (without the actual exam) with a gynecologist costs $245!  All she did was sit on my bed &amp; tell me there was nothing wrong with me.  I&#8217;m sorry but that&#8217;s damn ridiculous!!!!</span>

<span style="color: #7f8cc7;">Insurance companies take tons of blame for the cost of healthcare&#8230;.and I&#8217;m not saying that they are without culpability here.  I do think that if hospitals weren&#8217;t &#8220;for-profit&#8221; businesses things would certainly be better.  When healthcare facilities became focused on turning a profit, pleasing shareholders &amp; stopped focusing on treating the illnesses (not the symptoms) of the population of this country that&#8217;s when it all went in the toilet.  I&#8217;m fed up &amp; angry&#8230;..I don&#8217;t have the solution but someone out there must.  I&#8217;d like to know what it is.  Oh &amp; if you are thinking about coming here &amp; telling me I should get a higher paying job, have Hubby get a job dealing meth &amp; &#8220;do whatever it takes&#8221; to afford health care then I&#8217;m telling you right now where you can put that comment.  I work hard &amp; Hubby works harder trying to make money&#8230;.too bad with our current system no amount will ever be enough.</span><div class="shr-publisher-901"></div><!-- Start Shareaholic LikeButtonSetBottom Automatic --><div style="clear: both; min-height: 1px; height: 3px; width: 100%;"></div><div class='shareaholic-like-buttonset' style='float:right;height:60px;'><a class='shareaholic-googleplusone' data-shr_size='tall' data-shr_count='true' data-shr_href='http%3A%2F%2Fnil17.com%2F2009%2F10%2Frequest-denied-x4%2F' data-shr_title='Request+Denied+x4'></a><a class='shareaholic-fblike' data-shr_layout='box_count' data-shr_showfaces='false' data-shr_href='http%3A%2F%2Fnil17.com%2F2009%2F10%2Frequest-denied-x4%2F' data-shr_title='Request+Denied+x4'></a><a class='shareaholic-fbsend' data-shr_href='http%3A%2F%2Fnil17.com%2F2009%2F10%2Frequest-denied-x4%2F'></a></div><div style="clear: both; min-height: 1px; height: 3px; width: 100%;"></div><!-- End Shareaholic LikeButtonSetBottom Automatic -->]]></content:encoded>
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		<title>All Signs Say &#8220;Huh&#8221;?</title>
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		<pubDate>Thu, 10 Sep 2009 04:55:39 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Nil17</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[I&#8217;m going to tell you a little tale about a girl, the boy she loves, the job she has, the commission he is given &#38; the villian who tries to dash their hopes &#38; dreams. This girl, Lin is an average looking girl with glasses.  She loves Troy, a boy who works hard with his [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<!-- Start Shareaholic LikeButtonSetTop Automatic --><!-- End Shareaholic LikeButtonSetTop Automatic --><span style="color: #7f8cc7;">I&#8217;m going to tell you a little tale about a girl, the boy she loves, the job she has, the commission he is given &amp; the villian who tries to dash their hopes &amp; dreams.</span>

<span style="color: #7f8cc7;">This girl, Lin is an average looking girl with glasses.  She loves Troy, a boy who works hard with his hands to provide for their life together.  She works as an office girl: answering phones, greeting customers, writing letters &amp; filing papers.  He is a finish carpenter by trade (although he&#8217;s been out of work for a while) &amp; a furniture maker.  They live quite happily on a little acreage surrounded by giant pine trees with their dogs.  It&#8217;s a mostly happy life filled with all the usual ups &amp; downs.</span>

<span style="color: #7f8cc7;">One day Lin&#8217;s boss asks if Troy would be able to create a sign to hang on the front of the building.  Lin says yes &amp; her boss begins the long process of getting a design approved.  Once the inital design is approved by Lin&#8217;s boss &amp; also the bank that shares the building (the bank has to be in on everything as they think the world revolves around them) Troy gets to work.  He spends many hours in his shop selecting the proper pieces of lumber &amp; planing them down into smooth boards.  Then Troy joined the boards together to make the signs.  After months of waiting for a decision from the bank (they were given the task of choosing a font for the words) Lin made a decision.  She urged the two businesses to use the same font as their logos&#8212; this was met with a great deal of surprise as it had not occurred to anybody else that this was an option.  Lin &amp; Troy had the local print shop make up the letters in the appropriate size &amp; soon the letters were ready to be routered into the signs.  Before making anything permanent Troy arranged the paper letters on the signs, took pictures &amp; sent the files in for approval.  After a month of waiting the bank finally reached an agreement (after much discussion &amp; a vote of 3-2) &amp; Troy was able to begin the task of actually putting the letters into the wood.  During this process Lin asked what color the letters &amp; signs should be.  Nobody responded&#8230;but Lin was persistant &amp; finally got the okay to use a nice forest green color for the letters &amp; the rest would be left natural with a clear protective coating.</span>

<span style="color: #7f8cc7;">After months of work the signs were finally ready.  Troy had worked many hours &amp; carefully planned the project.  He had made certain that each step was approved before continuing.  Over all the project took 6 long months but looking at the finished product Lin &amp; Troy were proud of the work.  Since it was close to the end of summer so Troy made sure he got the signs mounted on the front &amp; end of the building.  He got it done just days before the town would be full of people for the annual town festival.  It was hard work too.  The big sign for the front of the builidng weighed in at nearly 300 pounds. </span>

<span style="color: #7f8cc7;">The day after Troy hung the signs he &amp; Lin stopped by the building to deliver the invoices for the signs.  When they arrived they saw 3 people standing at the front entrance looking up at the sign.  Before getting out of the truck Lin said to Troy, &#8220;I&#8217;ll just bet they are complaining about something.  You know how they are&#8230;if it wasn&#8217;t their idea or they didn&#8217;t do it then something must be wrong with it.&#8221; </span>

<span style="color: #7f8cc7;">Lin was right.  As she walked into the building the people standing outside were busy trying to figure out how to &#8220;improve&#8221; the signs.  When Troy came back from fueling up he walked right in blissful in his state of being totally unaware of what was waiting.  It didn&#8217;t take long until this was shattered by multiple people suggesting ways to improve the signs to make them &#8220;pop&#8221; more.  (One of the suggestors had been watching many home improvement shows on cable television.)  Angered by the lack of appreciation at delivering a product that was exactly to the specifications requested Troy &amp; Lin left and swore that if that&#8217;s how Troy&#8217;s hard work was going to be treated they would take the signs back.</span>

<span style="color: #7f8cc7;">The next day Lin had to work &amp; she was prepared to do battle for the boy she loved.  It made her feel sad &amp; angry to see Troy&#8217;s hard work dismissed so easily.  The two businesses had asked for signs that matched the log building that housed them.  They wanted something nice yet not too modern so that it didn&#8217;t look incongruous with the surroundings.  Troy had obliged with a beautiful wooden design&#8230;now the same people who commissioned the work were saying it wasn&#8217;t at all what they thought it would be.  When Lin&#8217;s boss arrived that day he immediately brought up the signs.  Lin was cautious &amp; curt with her answers at first.  Finally she told her boss how upset &amp; hurt Troy had been at the seeming disregard for all his hard work.  Lin said that it was beyond rude to treat someone in that fashion.  How would he feel if after putting in hard work to create something based on a vague design there was nothing but criticism?  Lin&#8217;s boss thought about that &amp; agreed that the presentation of questions &amp; suggestions could have been handled in a nicer manner.  Lin also let it be known that Troy was so upset he had insisted on working the night before to correct some minor alignment issues so he wouldn&#8217;t be subjected to more opinions on what wasn&#8217;t &#8220;right&#8221; with the sign.  After more discussion Lin&#8217;s boss said that he thought the signs were actually quite nice &amp; that the craftsmanship of the signs was indeed very good.  While there could have been some things done differently with the design it wasn&#8217;t anything that was critical to the appearance &amp; that next time Lin&#8217;s boss would have a better idea of what to ask for when having a sign made. </span>

<span style="color: #7f8cc7;">Lin passed all of this on to her beloved Troy &amp; the two of them felt appeased.  They set off for a long weekend content that the drama had been resolved.  Little did they know what the next week had in store for them.  It was just as well they didn&#8217;t because it would have ruined the relaxing weekend in the country.  After the weekend Lin went back to work &amp; Troy went back to his shop.  Their lives fell into its regular rhythm.  Lin stopped in to ask when they could expect the payment from the bank for their portion of the signs.  It was with great dismay &amp; anger that Lin learned the bank president had made it known that the sign invoice was not to be paid  until the owner of the bank (and Lin&#8217;s office) approved the signs.  Lin was shocked &amp; nearly in tears&#8230;how could she pay the bills?  The rent was due and Lin had counted on that payment.  With Troy essentially unemployed her small income wasn&#8217;t enough to take care of everything.  Troy&#8217;s work on the signs &amp; some upcoming projects were their only hope of making it.  Lin&#8217;s mind raced as she tried to adjust to the news &amp; not cry right there.  After a moment she looked at the lady who had reluctantly shared the news.  &#8221;Please let Prez SL know then that I will not be paying my rent until the signs are approved&#8221;, Lin bit the inside of her lip to keep her voice from cracking.  Finished with her errand at the bank Lin stalked across the hall, past her desk &amp; into her boss&#8217;s office.  She explained the dilemma that she &amp; Troy were now in.  Lin&#8217;s boss was so pissed off when he heard that the bank was refusing to pay on something they had approved already that he marched over to the bank.  Unfortunately the prez was with a customer but Lin&#8217;s boss did talk to the VP &amp; came back reassuring Lin that the bank would indeed pay &amp; in a timely  manner.  Lin felt a bit better that she had more people in her corner.  The longer Lin thought about the matter the more steely her resolve became.  She was risking not only her job but also her home going toe to toe with the bank president.  Of course when weighed against the hurt Troy would be caused if the bank got away with refusing to pay Lin knew that nothing was too great a risk&#8230;.</span>

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		<title>A Cornucopia of Crap or I&#8217;ve Had One of THOSE Days</title>
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		<pubDate>Sat, 29 Aug 2009 05:04:21 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Nil17</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[Let me start of with a warning for all my gentle readers.  I&#8217;m cranky today&#8230;I have a list of things I want to complain about, whine about &#38; generally rant about so I&#8217;m going to vent my spleen here for a bit.  Feel free to tell me to piss off or add your own list [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<!-- Start Shareaholic LikeButtonSetTop Automatic --><!-- End Shareaholic LikeButtonSetTop Automatic --><span style="color: #7f8cc7;">Let me start of with a warning for all my gentle readers.  I&#8217;m cranky today&#8230;I have a list of things I want to complain about, whine about &amp; generally rant about so I&#8217;m going to vent my spleen here for a bit.  Feel free to tell me to piss off or add your own list of irritations in the comments section.  A special note to all the men out there&#8230;this may include but is not limited to complaints about the following: my hair, my skin, &#8220;that&#8221; time of the month, how my clothes fit&#8212;especially my jeans, how much bras piss me off &amp; more &#8220;wimmin&#8217;s stuff&#8221;.  If you feel you hear too much of this at your house then I say *blows raspberry* &#8220;Jog On&#8221;.</span>

<span style="color: #7f8cc7;">Now to business&#8212;first let me just say &#8220;Thanks body&#8221; for deciding to start my day off with cramps &amp; all the other fun stuff&#8230;it was just what my Friday morning needed.  My day wasn&#8217;t complete until then so good job &amp; keep up the good work.  Not to mention I was in a decent mood&#8230;woke up on time, got ready (even had the perfect outfit already in mind) &amp; was out the door for work when I was supposed to be.</span>

<span style="color: #7f8cc7;">Oh yeah, work&#8230;let&#8217;s see it was a balmy 55 here today with no sun, wind &amp; rain.  So of course it makes sense that the air conditioner ran all day long (I&#8217;m not even close to joking about this).  I was prepared though&#8230;I wore a long sleeve shirt (new, lovely dark orange color with a cool design) with a shirt underneath, blue jeans &amp; sandals (it&#8217;s still August people I can&#8217;t wear my wool socks every day&#8230;I have a great pedicure right now).  I did get to try out my new heated footrest&#8230;AWESOME.  I will be very happy to have that to heat my tootsies when winter comes.  But back to the air conditioning&#8230;it ran all day.  It was like sitting in a meat locker.  Lunch time finally arrived so I headed home where I got the fun task of trying to determine why we have no cell phone service.</span>

<span style="color: #7f8cc7;">Of course finding out why I had no service required a call to Sprint&#8230;now Sprint &amp; I have an understanding&#8212;I use their network &#8216;cuz it works here, I have a great plan &amp; they don&#8217;t charge me too outrageously &amp; in exchange I don&#8217;t ever have to deal with their customer service.  So today I dialed *2 on my phone expecting to get Sprint&#8217;s customer </span><span style="text-decoration: line-through;"><span style="color: #7f8cc7;">nowyou&#8217;reinhell&amp;we&#8217;lldoourbestnottosolvetheproblem</span></span><span style="color: #7f8cc7;"> service line.  Wrong&#8212;I got Verizon instead.  They were very polite in telling me they couldn&#8217;t assist me with my problem.  I said I understood &amp; hung up. I then dialed Sprint&#8217;s customer service directly&#8230;this got me to a young lady who proceeded to tell me she couldn&#8217;t hear me (DUH! I have like no bars which is why I&#8217;m calling) and get very snotty when I asked her to repeat a question a couple times.  When I answered the question &amp; she aske me to repeat the answer 10 times I got shouty.  I&#8217;m standing in the middle of my driveway with the speaker phone on trying to get some signal &amp; shouting at the phone.  She finally transferred me to some &#8220;dude&#8221; with tech support.  Ha! he couldn&#8217;t provide athletic support the dumb jockstrap&#8230; after explaining my dilemma I asked what he could do to help.  He responded by saying that I was in a no coverage area &amp; there was nothing he could do.  With the patience of St Christopher &amp; using the vocabulary of a kindergarten teacher I explained once more how I had service yesterday (and 3 preceeding years) but when I woke up this morning there was no service.  The guy asked if I was in the same place as yesterday&#8230;Holy grief!  I had already told him at least 3 times that I was at my house&#8230;and since my house didn&#8217;t grow legs &amp; walk someplace in the middle of the night there was no reason why I should be in a no coverage area.  We went around in this same mind-numbing circle another 600 times&#8230;then he tried to sell me a signal booster (Upfront cost of $100 with a monthly cost of $10/line).  That took me from shouty to stabby&#8230;finally he transferred me to the Level 2 tech support.  There a lovely woman helped me in finding the problem.  During the previous night&#8217;s thunderstorm a tower had gone down &amp; wasn&#8217;t working.  She very nicely &amp; quickly set up a ticket for the outage &amp; offered to text me the number so I had a reference should I need to call back.  In a matter of 5 minutes I was off the phone secure in the knowledge that Sprint has 1 competent person working there.</span>

<span style="color: #7f8cc7;">Of course I didn&#8217;t get to eat lunch (no big deal as I&#8217;m on the outs with food which means I&#8217;m back on speaking terms with my bathroom scale.  I haven&#8217;t spoken to the scale in 3 years! Yesterday in a fit of insanity I stepped on &amp; was rather happy to see how low the number was.  I then went to the WiiFit for confirmation.  WiiFit gave me a much higher number so I&#8217;m not speaking to it for a while.) &amp; barely made it back to the </span><span style="text-decoration: line-through;"><span style="color: #7f8cc7;">meat storage</span></span><span style="color: #7f8cc7;"> office on time.  My afternoon was filled with the thousand details that make up my job&#8230;all of them tedious &amp; dull.  Of course that didn&#8217;t last long as one co-worker managed to find a rogue anti-spyware program that quickly installed itself &amp; changed the registry so that removal requires Herculean feats of strength (hmmm&#8230;.feats of strength&#8230;too bad I didn&#8217;t get a Festivus miracle).  Absolutely not blaming this on the co-worker.  She didn&#8217;t stand a chance since this damn thing got past the firewall, the anti-virus (which it disabled) and the anti-allkindsofnastycrap program that we keep faithfully up-to-date.  I&#8217;ll probably go in on the weekend to finish fixing that wonderful bit of heaven.</span>

<span style="color: #7f8cc7;">Oh and before I forget&#8212;why can&#8217;t I have hair that looks good?  It can look great but the second I step out of my bathroom it freaks out &amp; looks like I did it with a fork.  I won&#8217;t even go into the fact that I had better skin at age 16 than I do now&#8230;and as for my jeans well I&#8217;ve got no complaints there right now.  Of course that&#8217;s &#8216;cuz I&#8217;m down nearly 3 sizes (woo hoo for the no eating &#8216;cuz my gallbladder hates me).</span>

<span style="color: #7f8cc7;">Well that about wraps up my ranting for the day&#8230;thankfully the vicodin I took for my cramps finally kicked in so I might be able to sleep (after I take my other med which is seriously messing with me&#8230;the other night I dreamed I was living in the 16th century, I was locked up in a dungeon (not the cool fun kind either) and someone had taken my baby, cooked it in a pie &amp; tried to feed it to me.  Let me tell you that will wake you bolt upright in bed at 3am.)  *le sigh* As I said earlier&#8230;feel free to comiserate with me.  I love ya readers &amp; will be posting something that&#8217;s hopefully more fun very soon. Suggestions are welcome.</span><div class="shr-publisher-792"></div><!-- Start Shareaholic LikeButtonSetBottom Automatic --><div style="clear: both; min-height: 1px; height: 3px; width: 100%;"></div><div class='shareaholic-like-buttonset' style='float:right;height:60px;'><a class='shareaholic-googleplusone' data-shr_size='tall' data-shr_count='true' data-shr_href='http%3A%2F%2Fnil17.com%2F2009%2F08%2Fa-cornucopia-of-crap-or-ive-had-one-of-those-days%2F' data-shr_title='A+Cornucopia+of+Crap+or+I%27ve+Had+One+of+THOSE+Days'></a><a class='shareaholic-fblike' data-shr_layout='box_count' data-shr_showfaces='false' data-shr_href='http%3A%2F%2Fnil17.com%2F2009%2F08%2Fa-cornucopia-of-crap-or-ive-had-one-of-those-days%2F' data-shr_title='A+Cornucopia+of+Crap+or+I%27ve+Had+One+of+THOSE+Days'></a><a class='shareaholic-fbsend' data-shr_href='http%3A%2F%2Fnil17.com%2F2009%2F08%2Fa-cornucopia-of-crap-or-ive-had-one-of-those-days%2F'></a></div><div style="clear: both; min-height: 1px; height: 3px; width: 100%;"></div><!-- End Shareaholic LikeButtonSetBottom Automatic -->]]></content:encoded>
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		<title>The One Where I Go to the Hospital&#8211;Final Chapter?</title>
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		<pubDate>Sun, 23 Aug 2009 18:59:52 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Nil17</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[When last we were together our heroine was cruising along on a cocktail of pain meds &#38; sedation drugs.  Snowmen were being annihilated by her ever efficient flicks (&#8216;cuz let&#8217;s face it snowmen are creepy&#8230;with their hollow black eyes &#38; that inane empty smile). Meanwhile the doctors were still stumped as to what was causing [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<!-- Start Shareaholic LikeButtonSetTop Automatic --><!-- End Shareaholic LikeButtonSetTop Automatic --><span style="color: #7f8cc7;">When last we were together our heroine was cruising along on a cocktail of pain meds &amp; sedation drugs.  Snowmen were being annihilated by her ever efficient flicks (&#8216;cuz let&#8217;s face it snowmen are creepy&#8230;with their hollow black eyes &amp; that inane empty smile).</span>

<span style="color: #7f8cc7;">Meanwhile the doctors were still stumped as to what was causing all the pain.  After a battery of tests (all of which came back normal&#8212;see it&#8217;s a medically proven fact that I&#8217;m normal) and no answers I was more than a little upset.  Not to mention that nobody bothered to tell me what the test results were.  One of my nurses was super great (all of them were so nice to me) and filled me in on the parts she knew so I had the barebones idea that nothing big was showing up in the test results.  Since there didn&#8217;t seem to be any answers the doctors (I had 2 surgeons, an internist, a gastroenterologist, an ob/gyn &amp; her med student and a general physician) came by my room every day to see how I was feeling.  This mostly consisted of asking how I was feeling (horrible &amp; in pain) &amp; then probing &amp; pushing down on my right side asking if it hurt (Of course if bloody well hurts&#8230;holy grief that&#8217;s why I came into the ER in the first place.  The dull aching pain from my rib cage to my hip coupled with the sharp stabbing pains in the area of the rib cage).</span>

<span style="color: #7f8cc7;">What did they think I was going to change my mind?  Did it look like I was having fun?? Okay, I&#8217;ll admit that for the first 15-30 minutes after getting a brand new dose of Dilaudid I was pretty happy.  Seriously with that stuff you could do whatever you wanted to me &amp; I wouldn&#8217;t have objected&#8230;.well I might have objected but probably not very hard.  In any case Thursday was a day of waiting.  I was waiting for the second surgeon to look over my charts &amp; then visit me.  It never happened.  I spent the day drifting in and out of consciousness&#8230;.I was so tired!  Abe sat with me and when I was awake we talked, watched some telly &amp; played on the interwebz.  I was feeling pretty dejected by the time Abe left on Thursday night.  We talked it over &amp; agreed that if something wasn&#8217;t decided by Friday that I was checking out &amp; going home.</span>

<span style="color: #7f8cc7;">Friday dawned with me in a stupor.  A week of fitful sleep &amp; much poking by nurses, aides &amp; doctors left much to be desired.  We waited all day for the second surgeon to come visit.  In fact we waited most of the day for the general physician to visit.  By the time they both showed up I was in probably the worst pain I&#8217;d had all week.  Still they both examined me (by that I mean asked how I felt &amp; then poked me where it hurt) &amp; then decided that since there was no solid conclusion to why I was in pain etc that they would send me home with some prescriptions.  So on Friday evening the nurse gave me an extra dose of pain meds, removed the IV &amp; wheeled me down to the entrance.  I had just spent 5 days in the hospital (without insurance) and the only thing I had to show for it was a hospital bill that I&#8217;m terrified of getting in the mail.</span>

<span style="color: #7f8cc7;">Thus ends the tale of my week in hospital.  Putting the events to screen here makes me even more aware of how irritated I am that I have no answers.  While the doctors did acknowledge that maybe my gallbladder isn&#8217;t functioning as well as it should they still don&#8217;t believe it&#8217;s causing the problems I&#8217;ve described.  So I&#8217;m doing the best I can with what I know.  I&#8217;m careful to eat very little &amp; very specific kinds of food&#8230;like I can have lean meat (which I try to stick to anyway) or a chicken breast, I can eat Cheerios.  I do know that if I cut out all the fat in my diet that I&#8217;m just as likely to have a gallbladder attack as I would if I ate a pound of bacon.  The research I&#8217;ve been doing says that even with surgery I only have a 60% chance of feeling better.  HA! No thanks, I think I&#8217;ll try something else first.  I don&#8217;t mind changing my diet more&#8230;it&#8217;s something I need to do anyway.  What I do mind is the idea of never enjoying food again&#8230;so I&#8217;m being more careful but allowing for little indulgences.  I&#8217;m searching out alternative medicine such as acupuncture &amp; acupressure along with stuff I may not have discovered yet.  Modern medicine seems to be more about treating the symptoms (my pain) than eliminating the cause of it.  Not to mention the cost of modern medicine.  I&#8217;m not saying that doctors shouldn&#8217;t be paid well.  I am saying that it&#8217;s beyond outrageous that a consultation with an ob/gyn that lasts less than 20 minutes should not cost $245.  Seriously, that&#8217;s the one bill I already received&#8230;.she spoke to me for less than 20 minutes &amp; worked in a quick pelvic exam while she was at it &amp; for that she gets $245.  I&#8217;m not including the cost of any tests (mostly because she didn&#8217;t give me any) or lab work.</span>

<span style="color: #7f8cc7;">An side note to the hospital stay&#8230;I wish someone would have told me that I would feel like grim death after I left.  It doesn&#8217;t seem right that I felt even worse when I left than when I went in.  Saturday I did nothing but sleep with the odd trip to the bathroom thrown in.  It took every ounce of strength I possessed to walk the 15 feet from my side of the bed to the bathroom &amp; back.  Sunday wasn&#8217;t much of an improvement&#8230; I slept through my nephews 4th birthday party.  I&#8217;m feeling more like myself now&#8230;still with the pain but I choose to ignore it the best I can.  What the future holds is anybody&#8217;s guess&#8230;right now I&#8217;m trying to get out &amp; enjoy what&#8217;s left of my summer.</span><div class="shr-publisher-752"></div><!-- Start Shareaholic LikeButtonSetBottom Automatic --><div style="clear: both; min-height: 1px; height: 3px; width: 100%;"></div><div class='shareaholic-like-buttonset' style='float:right;height:60px;'><a class='shareaholic-googleplusone' data-shr_size='tall' data-shr_count='true' data-shr_href='http%3A%2F%2Fnil17.com%2F2009%2F08%2Fthe-one-where-i-go-to-the-hospital-final-chapter%2F' data-shr_title='The+One+Where+I+Go+to+the+Hospital--Final+Chapter%3F'></a><a class='shareaholic-fblike' data-shr_layout='box_count' data-shr_showfaces='false' data-shr_href='http%3A%2F%2Fnil17.com%2F2009%2F08%2Fthe-one-where-i-go-to-the-hospital-final-chapter%2F' data-shr_title='The+One+Where+I+Go+to+the+Hospital--Final+Chapter%3F'></a><a class='shareaholic-fbsend' data-shr_href='http%3A%2F%2Fnil17.com%2F2009%2F08%2Fthe-one-where-i-go-to-the-hospital-final-chapter%2F'></a></div><div style="clear: both; min-height: 1px; height: 3px; width: 100%;"></div><!-- End Shareaholic LikeButtonSetBottom Automatic -->]]></content:encoded>
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