http://nil17.com Ruminations on my life... Fri, 20 Jan 2012 04:59:40 +0000 en hourly 1 http://wordpress.org/?v=3.3.1 http://nil17.com/2010/09/the-run-down/ http://nil17.com/2010/09/the-run-down/#comments Thu, 09 Sep 2010 20:29:12 +0000 Nil17 http://nil17.com/?p=1396 I’m so tired.  I don’t feel like I’m really functioning lately…more like going through the motions.  It is terribly frustrating as Magnus is starting to really sleep at night with few wake-up times.  Usually he sleeps 4-6 hours the first time he goes down.  So wonderful for both of us as he still isn’t a big fan of the daytime nap.  Yet over the last 2 weeks I’ve found it increasingly difficult to sleep.  The sad thing is that the harder I work at sleeping the less success I seem to have. I visited my doctor yesterday…just a follow-up appointment for my meds & to check my thyroid.  My doctor suspects that part of my depression/fatigue/general feeling of malaise my be related to an under-active thyroid.  While I really don’t want to have ANOTHER problem it would be nice to have an answer to all of this.  Also, my doctor asked me about my visits to the psychologist. After several calls where I left messages I never did get a call back from the mental health organization…how nice that they took any of my messages about feeling depressed & struggling with post-partum seriously.*  They are quite lucky I have no urge to hurt myself or Magnus. (I would like to disappear…become invisible in fact.)  Anyway, the therapist I saw told me that as long as I’m breast-feeding I cannot switch to other medication.  The therapist also suggested I ask for melatonin to aid my insomnia.  My doctor scoffed at that & said that I need to see a psychiatrist to discuss my options for medication.  Apparently there may be a “helper” med that I can take with what I already have.  Of course I can’t even get in to see the psychiatrist until the 21st of this month. In the meantime I’m taking my meds as directed (I’m very diligent about it & take them at the same time every day…of course I have to have an alarm to remind me).  Exercise would probably help with my moods/physical fatigue…I am greatly lacking in the motivation department though. With the move I have been hauling boxes & packing so that made me feel pretty good.  It was quite nice to feel up to hauling boxes of books around.  That coupled with a very necessary shopping trip (it REALLY was necessary—I’ve lost quite a bit of weight & I needed to get pants that fit.) where I bought pants several sizes smaller than I have worn in a while plus a cute bit of girl-y something (all on major discount!) did give me a bit of a boost over the weekend.  Now if I could just feel rested I’d be on my way to feeling better.

]]> http://nil17.com/2010/09/the-run-down/feed/ 1 http://nil17.com/2010/09/cracking-the-books/ http://nil17.com/2010/09/cracking-the-books/#comments Tue, 07 Sep 2010 22:37:02 +0000 Nil17 http://nil17.com/?p=1374 As you may know, we are in the middle of another move.  This one is happening at a leisurely pace which makes it so much more pleasant. The living room is half moved, the upstairs will be empty tonight & all that is left in the basement is the washer & dryer.  Our bedroom, the kitchen & the bathroom are still completely untouched but we will move most of that this coming weekend.  This past weekend we moved some things including our books & book shelves.  Here’s a quick peek at that little piece of the move. Yes all those boxes are full of books…no we can’t put all of them on the shelves we have.  Not to mention that I seem unable to keep myself from adding to the collection on a regular basis.  Still the shelves will look very nice in my new sitting room.

]]> http://nil17.com/2010/09/cracking-the-books/feed/ 2 http://nil17.com/2009/12/this-old-house/ http://nil17.com/2009/12/this-old-house/#comments Mon, 07 Dec 2009 20:08:16 +0000 Nil17 http://nil17.com/?p=1086 Well it’s official….we’ve found a new place to live.  Over the last week/weekend we made plans to look at some potential houses for the big move.  There were a lot of places that sounded like they’d be great.  One was a nice double wide with some additions…it looked really nice.  It was on 17 acres which was something I really wanted.  However I wasn’t willing to share it with the other tenant who lived in another trailer on the same property.  It just seemed like a bad idea to share space with a stranger. Another place we actually went to look at was a nice looking (from the pictures) 2 story farm house on four acres with a fenced in pasture & a barn.  Not that we need a barn but with dogs it is nice to be able to put them outside & yet know they have a nice sheltered place to be if we are gone for a few days.  Walking into this house gave me the idea that things would be difficult living there.  The front corner of the house had settled quite a lot so there was a pronounced slope to the entry & kitchen.  I’m fairly certain that putting an egg on the (miniscule) kitchen counter would have led to the egg being smashed in the corner of the room.  The dining room was very nice…easily the nicest in the house…with beautiful hardwood floors, built in cabinets & really nice wood throughout.  However, there were supposed to be 3 bedrooms…well since the upstairs was not available (some lady likes to come & stay there from time to time I guess.  And there isn’t a separate entrance for her plus she’d have to use the main bathroom & kitchen) they had taken the formal sitting rooms (which were divided by a giant pocket door) and closed them off creating 2 “bedrooms”.  This meant that there was only one common living area (the dining room) which was NOT large enough to hold our living room furniture let alone a table & chairs.  So that left us with one more place to inspect before we were back to square one. The final place we actually went to inspect is 30 miles west of Sioux Falls.  A bit further than we’d like but still easily in reach since it’s interstate driving.  It’s in town (another thing I especially wanted to avoid as I like my space, don’t really like people, and I want to have plenty of room for our dogs) but it was the right size & the right price!  We ended up taking the tour in the dark (the owner had the power shut off & our appointment was for 7 PM) & cold.  It was an adventure navigating the house with only flashlights.  Still it was a really nice house.  There is plenty of space of us & we will have room for guests as well (if we ever have any).  There is a teeny back yard so it will be a huge adjustment for the dogs but we have a nice large garage so they can be in there too.  Overall we are very happy with the house & know that it’s only temporary as we have a one year lease & then can look for something else if we want. Now comes the packing which I hate.  Our house is a jumbled mess (one because I am a terrible housekeeper & two because we’ve started packing already) & we’ve got 3 weeks to pack, clean & move 400 miles in the winter.  I have no idea how we will manage to move our stuff (there’s a lot of furniture & things like the grill, lawnmower, dog house) without stealing an 18 wheeler.  I can’t think about it too much or I end up crying/having a panic attack. I will miss our old house.  It isn’t perfect but it is our little world.  We can sit outside without people seeing us, there’s a fire pit & lots of room for the dogs.  We have gorgeous trees that flower & turn bright pink in the spring.  There are lots of birds & even an occasional deer will wander through.  It is my haven, my Fortress of Solitude & I will miss it greatly.

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